Homework and basically catching up on all subjects have been taking up more than half my time during this long vesak day weekend. In the process, i came up with this; that the alternative to work isn't just idleness, it's more than that. As much as I treasure the pleasure of torpor, it's never more rewarding than when it punctuates other pleasures and pastimes. Now, don't get me wrong here for i am not promoting the managed time-disciplined "safety"-valve called "leisure". In fact, its far from it. Studying and having something worthwhile to do will nonetheless serve as the impetus in one's life. At least, it keeps me going. Ok, i thinked i've experienced the fun element of studying today, and maybe only today. You won't detest studying that much if you have enough sleep before that. And hey, i'm not being sarcastic here.

Shifting my thoughts a little. With the whirlpool going on around me, it triggered me to think about, "Are the lives we trifle with ours to lead?" Everyone should have a right to what he or she wants to do with their lives. Rules and religion can only serve as a guidance, not much of a boundary. All events arise as a combination of people involved and circumstances. Yet even when we consider the word "friends", we must consider, "are those we mix around our own choice?" Or is it part of a set of qualities immanent with us? Very often, people befriend another just because they are popular/high profile or are of 'good use' in that sense. These are the group of people whom i feel have low self-esteem and are definitely not deserving of even being called 'our friends'. Will they even be there for us when we're in shit or something? Hence i'd only regard these people as acquaintances. Why bother wasting your time and energy on people who actually don't even bother or are indifferent for that manner. How many people can accept individuals as who they really are, that is, over-seeing all their flaws and instead, embracing them? Who really, are your genuine friends?

Whatever we do, we must be constantly aware that our choices and actions may impinge upon the happiness of others around us. Nonetheless, i should be more tactful in that aspect too.

We often hear that common jeremiad "After all I've done for you... is this how you...?" While we must remember that our actions may affect people around us, we cannot live our lives to please everyone.

Bottomline, never take things or people for granted.